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Corona changed a lot for everyone. I ran into some problems including procrastination, less physical exertion, and a (in my opinion) messed up sleeping schedule. I wanted to zoom into my sleeping schedule, because I have noticed that this has a bigger impact than I had previously thought. I wanted to research my own sleeping schedule, and all existing sleep schedules. What is affected by this? because we already know it has a bigger impact than just being tired when not getting enough sleep.

What changed in my sleeping schedule? what is my cycle? I notice i'm going to sleep later, and hence wake up later. Even with the online classes, i have trouble going to bed earlier. I find it hard to work on my project individually, because i keep saying to myself i'll do it in a bit, or tomorrow. It feels like my dicipline slowly has been degraded over the duration of the lockdown. My eating pattern, sleeping pattern and study pattern are disrupted. The image below briefly introduces us to some problems that occur when you dont maintain a good sleeping schedule.

I will try to addres what sleeping cycle is, what changed to my sleeping schedule during corona, how this affected me physically and mentally, and if i can mend this rupture. Also, how do your dreams affect me, and is there a cause for my change in my sleeping schedule?.

My sleeping schedule is the monophasic cycle. This is the most common sleep cycle, and even after corona I kept this sleeping schedule.
Because almost everybody uses this sleep cycle, social life won't be disturbed. Friends and family are accessible in the daytime, and so is the study.

I researched other sleeping patterns aswell, and the biphasic cycle is the 2nd most similar sleeping cycle to mine. Especially with the hot weather, i take more naps. Sometimes I can't wake up properly after i set my timer on 15 minutes, which causes me to keep snoozing, and waking up still tired. But when i had the dicipline to wake up after 15 or 20 or 30 minutes, I felt better. More awake, and not hazy. Although sometimes I couldn't take a nap on a busy day, i didn't really feel the need to take a nap when i was busy. I was more tired in the evening though. Thing is, it's hard to maintain a monophasic cycle if you take naps, because I found that if i slept too much, I became more tired and not active in the daytime

My dicipline towards responsibilities have been affected by corona. My study feels less urgent, and I find it harder to keep myself in an inspirining work ethic. Previously, when I had to work on a project for my major, I would just go to the academy, sit down, and start working on what i have to do. Because i'm at the academy, I feel like i had an overview, because I could ask fellow students questions about the asignment and how they did certain things. Also, fewer things can distract me from getting work done.

Can you think about how your body is diciplined & kept in place?

Unrelated to the gender aspect of the text, but this made me think about my body and how sleep is a big part of the functioning of the body. How is it possble that a system, in this case my sleeping cycle, that i build up for a long time, gets disrupted because of corona. It doesn't affect any possible biological sleeping issues for me.

Maybe the corona virus made us regain te ability to take a time out to think, write draw etc. Are we so used to the fast paced lifestyle we are all living in the 21st century? If we lack some of the human needs in the normal time, what if that gets disrupted even more because of corona? Social distancing makes it even harder to stay in contact with friends or family, but does the disruption cause bigger problems than thought in this text?

What if the disruption in the fast paced lifestyle gave us too much time to think about ourselves, making it easier to try to sit out the corona phase? Nothing felt serious. Online education (especially for an art academy) will never work as good as normal education. There is no answer to the situation. We get disrupted from the basic human needs, and try so hard to adapt, that we are already rushing towards solutions. I think the practice program is the biggest victim of corona. A class meant to inform you about the different study directions per major, and meet fellow students from other majors to work together. Why do i have trouble with this?

Why are you staying up late if you know you're going to feel like shit tomorrow?

It goes Responsibilities -> Free Time -> Responsibilities. If Free Time never ends, more Responsibilities never come. And that's the lie that has me playing videogames or watching a movie until 3am.

I hate going to bed, and I hate getting up. But I LOVE sleeping. I don't get it.

Going to sleep late is borrowing happiness from tomorrow

When researching my sleeping pattern, i noticed that i was drinking more alcohol then before corona. Ofocurse, the change in weather can be a factor, but i think the desire to have your state of mind altered when you are bored, plays a bigger role. I was also smoking more weed, sometimes in the afternoon even. This affected my sleep immensly, because if i were to smoke during the daytime i would be more likely to take a nap.

Has my discipline towards responsibilities degraded because of a worse sleeping schedule, or is the lack of discipline the cause for the rupture in my sleeping schedule?

An experiment, how do i sleep? What is my sleep cycle?
I must admit that i've been going to bed earlier this week, because it felt like someone was checking my sleep schedule. That, of course, was me. Why do i go to bed earlier if i feel like some one is checking y sleep schedule? Do i need some sort of rule to obtain a healthier sleeping schedule? Without corona, going to the academy almost every day makes me more productive. This is the ''thing'' checking my sleeping schedule. Even though i don't have class every day, i still tend to go a lot. I found out that i was already creating rules for my sleeping schedule, without focussing on it. Are those rules gone now, even though we do have class? What are the factors that make it so different?

Getting out of my house is one of the biggest factors. My travel to the academy takes about 30 minutes. The time to travel to my in-house office takes 3 seconds. Distractions are just around the corner, like a tv, of going out to play some basketball. This can be done close to the place where i live, causing me to be tempted to do something else than working on my study.

For the video, i wanted to make something that would represent how i felt these months. I wantd to highlight the feeling of a loop, days just repeating. The sleeping cycle is a central point. It had to be about how i got disrupted from the outside world I wanted to make this video using scenes and audio from existing movies and shows i have been watching. This because i've watched a lot of shows, and i feel like that has been the real countable progression of time. There are parts in the video where i socialize, but it feels very faded. Trying to make or produce something is hard. I mixed audio and video of myself in with the stuff i watched. I tried to depict my confusion, questioning if i can fix this rupture, or if this only ends when corona ends.